I'm 19 weeks pregnant! I can't believe how much I love this kid already. Today as I was eating lunch, my little one kicked constantly, as if to say, "mmmm I love this stuff, keep eating mama!" Who knew that Beef O' Roni would be such a big hit?
Last weekend I went shopping with my mom and aunt. I ended up buying a bassinet for my little one. I brought it home and set it up by my side of the bed. I check it every morning just in case I might find a baby in there. Hey, you never know!
I'm feeling very connected to my parents lately. I guess I understand them a little better now that I'm becoming one myself. I've gotten to the point where I really love spending time with them and hearing their advice. As I get older (and hopefully wiser) I'm seeing that I have made some huge mistakes in my life. I wish my baby could have a perfect mom, but I'm so far from it. I know one day this kid is going to figure that out, and it's terrifying. What if (s)he loses respect for me... or worse, what if (s)he loses love for me?
All I know is, there is no possible way that I can do this on my own. So God, if you're reading, please help!
